i felt a lot today

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today i went from feeling so tired and worn, to blissfully happy

to oh-my-god-i'm-probably-going-to-die stressed, to careless, to carefree

to gosh-how-is-it-possible-to-feel-so-much.

i felt a lot today, you see.

i felt broken and weak.

i felt what it was like to take a real exam,

i felt what it was like to be surrounded by people who all wanted the same

thing as me,

i felt connected with these people, these boys and girls (growing into young men and women, just like me) with whom i had spent so much time preparing for today.

i felt weak with relief too, so glad that a huge chunk of this examination was over (one more day, and it's all over)

i felt giddy too and light-headed.

(i'll know my results in four days, and four days is a lot to wait)

i felt fed-up,

overwhelmed.

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i felt a lot today.

but isn't it better to feel a lot than to feel nothing at all?

surely it is better for your soul, no? at least i hope so.