Is my existence validated?

High patterned socks. Converse, All Star that is, not One Stars that are $20 cheaper. The most expensive the better. Doc Martens. Vans. Think legs. Bony elbows. Short skirts.

What has our generation been reduced to?

I cringe at the girls that surround me who smile with a hollowness, who laugh with an emptiness, echoing with waves of ache. "Notice me", their branded bags seems to scream. "I've conformed, look at what I'm wearing. It's the same as what you guys are! Is my existence validated?". 

But how do they expect boys to treat them like royalty when they aren't even treating themselves. To a facial expression that is not constantly in tune with the one that the girl next to them is wearing. To lids that are not heavy with makeup, night and day. (Slippery gunk, smother shimmer, use the weird scalpel thing to curl your eyelashes: and voilà! Guaranteed popularity!). To tastes that fill their cheeks and wrap around their stomach. To a single independent breath, letting them stretch up, extend their backs and allowing their lungs to do what lungs do.

But maybe I am lying. Maybe this is something I tell myself to feel OK. Because who knows?

Maybe conforming is the only way to pass the time.

and I stand

“All she wanted 
was to find a place to stretch her bones 
A place to lengthen her smiles 
and spread her hair 
A place where her legs could walk 
without cutting and bruising 
A place unchained 
She was born out of ocean breath. 
I reminded her; 
‘Stop pouring so much of yourself 
into hearts that have no room for themselves 
Do not thin yourself 
Be vast 
You do not bring the ocean to a river.’”

—	Tapiwa Mugabe, You Are Oceanic

The world is buzzing and exploding with light and sound. When I look up, all the summer fruit are slowly coming out, the insects are crawling, the air is thick, my heart is doing what hearts normally do - pumping - and I stand. I stand barefoot, on dry grass. I slap a mosquito. I stand, waiting.

I stand gobsmacked at Mugabe's words, I stand with a simultaneous thirst for people and a thirst for being alone away from everything. I stand broken, and so mixed up, and most of all I stand trying. Trying so hard to stop jumping from one mood to the next, trying to show people who I am, really, inside. 

Guest Post || Sophie

I have Sophie here with me at school, we have a break, so I've decided to ask her personality questions:

What do you like to do on a rainy afternoon?

I'd like to read books or put a hoodie on and go outside and enjoy the rain.

Do you enjoy photography?

I don't have a camera and don't take many pictures, but I do enjoy looking at inspiring pictures, like the ones on Zoé's blog!

What are some of your favourite songs?

I like "Your love is my drug" by Kei$ha and "Animal" also by her.

So you have a moto, or an inspiring group of words you would like to share?

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass but learning to dance in the rain", and my other one "Keep going there is always good ahead" which means that every day there will always be something nice that will make your day, even if you don't know about it yet. 

What is your favourite herb, flower or plant?
{She's quite into herbal medicine :) }

I like, lavender because if its' medical uses and it smells nice. I also really love snow drops.

Which holiday (Easter, Christmas or your Birthday) do you prefer?

Christmas is probably my favourite because you get to receive chocolate, toys and other fun things and others too, so you can enjoy your presents together. 

Do you wear jewelry? What is your favourite item?

If I wear jewelry it would be simple, pretty and meaningful to me - with a sentimental value. I would wear it almost always and would keep great care of it. I love charms and pendants, so necklaces.


Lastly what is the genre of book that you prefer?

Mythology and Adventure. Also Fantasy. Such as Harry Potter (7) & Percy Jackson.

Thank you Sophie! You have been awesome! Thanks for giving my blog a moment of your time.

Thanks, it's an honor to be on your blog.

Challenge || 10 Secrets

10 Day Challenge || 10 Secrets:





There are a different types of secrets,
The ones you gather in your garden of secrets to cultivate and keep for yourself,
The ones you furtively whisper to your best friends,
The ones you tell solemnly to your mother, And the ones you tell your blog and blog readers.

So, 10 SECRETS:


10. I love kiddy movies or shows: Shawn The Sheep, Ruby Gloom, Tangled, Dispicable Me, The Incredibles etc... I also like dolls and sock monkeys.
9. I wouldn't mind being famous for a couple of days. Why is it a secret? Well, I'm not exactly a Girly Wirly I-wanna-be-a-movie-star-or-pop-star-and-now type of person... I don't know. I think it would be fun to try it out though.
8. I have a couple of things I would like. But they are either so absurdly expensive or so impossibly hard to get/find that they are my secrets: 
* Perfume. Yes I know I know I am only 12. BUT, really nice smells in really romantic glass bottles just make me want them! 
7. Wings :) No comment. No actually, yes comment.
I WANT TO FLY.
6. I also want the power of FIRE and WATER. :) Oh, and EYE. And to talk to animals. Like birdies. ~tweet~
5. I also wouldn't mind being a princess. And have a wedding like Kate's. Yeah.
4. Four more secrets to go... I'm running out :) I am obsessed with cats. And cat eyes. Black cats. Woooow.
3. My parents are divorced. I have 2 half-sisters and a step-dad.
2. I'd love to read minds.
1. And... # 1: I am a shopaholic :)


BTW these are not in any specific order :)



See you tomorrow,
~ Zoé

10 Day *You* Challenge

Hello again,

I have been tagged by Sonshu for a personality challenge. Over 10 days, I have to post:
















I tag Arianna, Polka Dot, Alice, Rita XOXO and Sukanya. I have followed these people's blog with interest and would love for them to participate!
Also, if anyone else is interested, feel free!

~ Zoé